Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Jasper Speaks:

So, here is the big life changing news. We are getting a baby boy. For keeps. He is coming to us free and clear for adoption and we will be moving forward very quickly with that. It is amazing and crazy and incredible all at once. We have chosen the name Jackson and how quickly we have fallen in love!

God has been incredible in moving in this. You see, this is the baby the agency first told us about when we were licensed about eight months ago. He was a newborn at the time and had some health issues because he was a preemie and had a birth defect with his intestines involved. Every month or so we would get an update from our social worker saying they were trying to get an "adoption staffing" together for him. An adoption staffing is when all the interested parties in the baby's life get together and review home studies and pick the family that will be the best for the baby.

The last one was on February 22. We purposely did not tell anyone about the staffing in case it fell through. We didn't want to answer a lot of "what did you find out" kind of questions. On the 22nd, we were very nervous all day as we awaited the word. I prayed a lot that God would work things out in the best interest of the baby. About 3:30 that day we got an email from our licensing worker telling us they had decided to give the baby to another family. The main reason the other family was chosen was because they had a stay at home mom.

We were really hurt and had just about given up on the whole process. If you look back at my post on February 23, like the addict I am, we had great pasta and I ate a pound of M&Ms that helped me gain four pounds overnight. But God had been teaching us a lesson for a few months that we were forced to put into action.

You see, my fascination with Facing The Giants was tested. In that movie, the main character, Grant Taylor, says time and time again, "We are going to praise God when we win and we are going to praise God when we lose". That night, after we found out the baby would be going to another family, Kendra and I prayed that prayer. Perhaps it was half hearted at that moment but by the next morning, we began to LIVE it. Though we were sad, we were praising God that He still had a great plan for our lives and the life of the baby we thought we would never know. We were doing our best to rejoice in the situation.God had taught us that He is always in control and we began living that out. We moved on with our lives and found things to praise Him for even though the child we wanted would have to wait to come later.

Last Wednesday, I opened my email in between classes. There was an email waiting from our licensing agent. She said that the family who had been chosen to take the baby had some issues and decided that they could not take him. Then she asked, "are you still interested". My heart skipped a beat and I immediately called Kendra. She hadn't received the email and when I told her what it said, she was as shocked as I was! we wrote back and said, "absolutely we are still interested". The baby's social worker was contacted and we missed church that night to meet with her.

We learned all about his background and saw a picture of him. We scheduled our first meeting with him for last night. at about 6:25 or so, Jackie and the baby arrived. She left us alone with him for an hour or so and we quickly agreed this was the one. If all goes well (and there is no reason to suspect differently) he will come to live with us early next week. The adoption will be finalized in about six months. His is beautiful. We will post pictures here after March 28, when the Termination of Parental Rights is complete. There is very little chance that the mother will contest that. God has dropped him into our lives with very little issues legally.

Please pray for us as we continue to praise God when winning and when losing. It is all part of his perfect plan. We have learned so much about God and His power and love. We have learned so much about trusting in His plan. It doesn't always end in this fashion and we are going to do our best to rejoice when things don't work in this way. But for now we are basking in the glow of a new baby boy in our lives, Jackson Grant Rains.


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